Many pple gr0w up t00 quickly because they reject and surpress their feelings. Their unres0lved em0ti0nal pain is waiting inside to c0me 0ut t0 be l0ved and healed. Alth0ugh they may attempt t0 surpress these feelings, the pain and unhapiness c0ntinue t0 affect them.
Anything d0ne t0 excess can bec0me a means t0 numbs the pain 0f unres0lved past.
By taking time t0 listen t0 your feelings are in effect saying t0 the little feeling pers0n inside “YOU MATTERS. YOU DESERVED TO BE HEARD ADN I CARE EN0UGH T0 LISTEN.”
Was it bec0s 0f the m0rning rains 0r was it my sixth sense telling me s0mething bad is g0ing t0 happens /had happened. ( and damm, my sixth sense was always right and I had always trusted it)
s0mething did happened!!!
Haiz, I am s0 damm affected by it !!!!!
DUno why my m00d swings s0 frequently lah!!
Luckily tml is thur, n0rmally my m00d vey g00d 0n thur de… Pray tml is a happy day f0r me!!
My m00d is even m0re exciting than the st0cks, If I am the Exxx pte ltd St0cks and th0se pple wh0 buy m0i shares see h0w the shares g0es up & d0wn , their hearts g0ing t0 jump out in any sec… and the next thing can heard the siren 0f the ambulance…..
I just need t0 relax and let g0 of it!!
Everything will be fine !!
wh0 am i kidding??
I am n0t fine at all !!
Chicken backside lah!!
Wearing these yell0w tees ( with the car printed on it) s0meh0w brighten my m00ds. I dUn0 what magic it have but it did brighten my days whenever I wearing it…
Ok, I have decided that Iam g0ing t0 wear these f0r the next 365 days !!!
whahahhaa!! I am a smelly and dirty gerl!!!
Oh yea, I wearing my newly b0ught wheel heels…
I t00k it out 0n the sec0nd day after I b0ught it…
I just cant hide anything frm my mum…c0nfessi0n is a h0nest way!!
Even th0ugh it was m0nday and the gr0und was wet frm the rains which had st0pped few hrs ag0, it still did n0t dampen my m0rning m00d.
Leave the h0use after gettting all dress up and with all my make up
(my eyes looks bigger t0day) :p
Reached 0ffice.
D0 the usual stuff, check my h0rscop,check emails and read pple bl0gs (if have time)
And thumper thump, lighting strikes and alm0st burns me…
There is a saying, curi0ustly d0 kills and well it KILLS ME!!
s0 is the p0wer 0f Jeal0usy. ENVY !!
IT is affecting me …. t0 make thing w0rse, the radi0 is playing all th0se sad s0ng the wh0le m0rning . Is it c0nincides 0r what?
Making me feels like crying 0ut but still I h0ld back….
Till lunch hrs, while chatting with T, my eyes teary… but still h0ld it back…putting 0n a brave front, chatts and smile very happily.
ASk T t0 teach me sing ke jia gong “ AH ma selling the veggie ” Is a very happy s0ng..
Yea, I only kn0w h0w t0 sing the first sentense.
“ah po mai hum choui” , dong ku……
T sense s0mething is wr0ng and keeps 0n asking me what happens but still I refuse t0 let him kn0w….
0n the way back, I just break dwn.
Feeling much better after that…
Th0ugh kn0wing it is 0ne thing, accepting the facts is an0ther things…
WHat makes w0men happY
-Happy when they believe their needs will be met.
-Ned t0 feel she is n0t al0ne, ned t0 feel loved and cherished.
A w0men is like a wave, when she is feeling really g00d, she reached a peak but then suddenly her m00d may change and her wave crashed d0wn which is only tem0rary. AFter reaching the b00t0m, her m00d will shift suddenly and will again feel g00d abt herself. Aut0matically her wave begins to rise back up.
In the meanwhile, I need t0 think and d0 s0me reflecti0n.
What d0 I really need and what d0 I really wants. We may think that we have many needs and wants many things, but d0 they bring lasting happiness. Is that 0ur s0uls’ desire??
A little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise Cos I believe that we can work things out
I thought I had all the answers
Never giving in
But baby since you’ve gone
I admit that I was wrong
All I know is I’m lost without you
I’m not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever said we’ll never be together
and we ended with goodbye
Don’t know what I’d do
I’m lost without you
I keep trying to find my way
but all I know is
I’m lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
Lost without you
How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues?
Baby I’m so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You’re the only thing that’s on my mind
Oh my beds so cold at night
I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right
No I’m not too proud to say
If I could only hold you now
Make the pain just go away
Can’t stop the tears from running down my face
I keep trying to find my way
And all I know is
I’m lost without you
i’m Lost without you
oh
N0t really a g00d day t0 start ahead when I ned t0 get up early f0r w0rk… after that went f0r my driving class.
Meet T after that and went bugis to had my breakfast cum lunch ….Had a hard time searching f0r carpark lots. Oh yea, did i mentioned it is my first time to get the bike started..whahah..I must have l00k c00l . Went kinokunya t0 kill time. later at nite then went t0 watch Transf0rmer. It was awes0me.I dun mind watching it again.. LOL!!
But then after the sh0w, I have difficulities in walking out normally. I tried to walk straight but then i sway frm left to right… ( people who duno may thought I must be drunk) luckily it was already late in the nite…. n0 much ppl ard…
rest dwn awhile…
what c0uld be the reason ??
0r maybe the pill I took ?
Or maybe I havent be sleeping well? 0r I havent been eating well?
or maybe t00 tired le and it was already 1:30 in the morning or was it 2:30am?
I c0uldnt even read the time.
I c0uldnt turn my head as it will make me giddy
I c0uld 0nly l00k straight ahead breathing deeply….
But still manage t0 get h0me in 1 piece…
Black d0 have the ability t0 let people have the illusi0n 0f being SLIM….whahah!!
I THINK Y0U MUST BE BLIND AS y0U CANT EVEN SEE ME IN THE Br0ad DAYLIGHT!!!
If nOT Y0UR DRIVING SKILLS MUST BE SUCK!! H0W C0ULD Y0U GET Y0UR LICENSE IN THE FIRST PLACE.
DONT Y0U EVEN KN0W THE BASIC SAFETLY????
WHEN PEDESTRAIN ARE TURNED AWAY FR0M TRAFFIC/Y0U,
KEEP A GAPS 0F AT LEAST 1.5M AWAY FR0M THEM.
EVEN WITH THE WIDE R0AD, WHY THE HELL ARE Y0UR WING MIRR0R S0 CL0SE T0 ME. IF I N0T CAREFUL 0R STEP UP MY F00T,I MAY JUST GET KN0CKED D0WN/BRUSH AGAINST BY Y0UR DAMM VEHICLE…
CANT Y0U SEE THERE IS A CYCLIST BESIDE ME….
IT IS N0T W0RTH T0 GET KN0CKED D0WN BY Y0U JUST T0 AVOID THE CYCLIST.
FUCKING ASSH0LE….
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
I need t0 c00l d0wn…..
T0day the bl0ck acr0ss me g0t 0n fire f0r dun0 what reas0n.Luckily n0 0ne was in the flat at that time as it was pitch dark.
I heard sirean and th0ught what had happen. Then my mum shout t0 me fr0m the kitchen “fire” ,”fire” .I l00ked 0ut 0f the window and saw black sm0kes c0ming out fr0m the 11th st0rey….. pe0ple was cr0wding ar0und…a l0ts 0f kap0 heads were p0pping out fr0m different level 0f the building.
Just like an unsolve jigsaw puzzle, just that mine will never be s0lve, there is n0 pretty pic…just a few pieces here and there.
It will never be complete.
Y0u never kn0w what is the picture that y0u are s0lving .
Kind 0f upset at first, sl0wly it became clear 0f what is g0ing 0n. kind 0f disappointed upon kn0wing it. …and start t0 questi0n myself whether is it all w0rth getting upset about..
After s0me days, had c00l d0wn a bit but then s0mething sh0cking just came flewing right 0n face. Curiosty just kills the cats. cats kills the mice…mice “me” It kills me!!
0nce m0re, I just c0uldnt handle it again. I sayaing again as I used t0 f0und 0ut sh0cking in the past and t00k quite a while t0 get 0ver it.
And n0w…….why ??? Why ???
Till n0w, I still have n0 answer t0 that sh0cking news…
I have n0 idea why the muscle just below my right eyes keep on twisting.
But then it twist f0r a reas0n, whenever it twist s0mething bad sure happens t0 me.
And it have been carry 0n f0r m0nths….that is hell….
s0me may say that I just t00 tired 0r never get en0ugh rest/sleep….
but then why d0es the bad things keep 0n happen t0 me??
There are t00 many t0 remeber but there is a few which I did remeber.
E.g.1
During the valentine eve, my hp batt get hot suddenly with n0 reas0n (luckily it did n0t explode) and when I went t0 the nokia centre, the batt was out 0f st0ck and the chinese new year is just in a few day which mean have t0 wait…. but in the end I went t0 buy a new batt frm the selling hp shop.
E.g. 2 My new watch fall 0ff just when i taking it 0ff and cause the glass to crack was smashed.…
E.g.3 alm0st quit my j0b and lost s0meone be0s 0f s0mething happens…
E.g. 4 I almost get s0me0ne int0 tr0uble. …..(hopefully nuthing will happen.. )
E.g. 5 I lost all my message
E.G. 6 t0daywent t0 open an account and just found out that my name was type wr0ngly (anyway it was my fault, never check proberly) and n0w dun0 can it be change….stupid me lah….
etc…..there are t00 many t0 mentioned….dun really remeber the rest….
and n0w it is still twisting….bl00dly heelll…..
anyway t-day went t0 celebrate my grandma bbday and tml is my granny 80th Da Shou….
Happy Birthday t0 Siew FUng
Advance Happy Birthday t0 Peggy!!
S0rry f0r n0t being able t0 celebrate with y0u on m0n
SUN 15 April 07
Update:
* Granny with her grandchilds*
-still have an0ther 5 grandchilds n0t in the ph0tos -
The Art 0f Life is t0 kn0w h0w t0 enj0y a little & t0 enDure very much. ...
Dreams Can 0nly c0me true if we have the c0urage t0 persue them....
With0ut g0als & plans t0 reach, we are just like a shiP that has set sail with n0 Denstinati0n.....
